♥ MINUTES OF LIFE ♥

Still Single

2012-02-13T07:41:00.002+08:00

Andrew thanks for the flower...movie ... and dinner...

Didn't expect to receive flower even is single...lolx....

Cammy Foo(Mrs. Lee) and Raymond Daniel Lee (RDL)!!!!!!
~ ini 2 orang a....play kissing game haii maii..... okiee....raymond so happy o...can kiss Cammy Foo.....lolxx....
~RDL take my photo somemore....lolx....i wanna know ...kiss d basah n both shy...what meaning o....
-.-" faint....play this kind of games.....now only i know my friends siao de...but ...happy to know you all...lolxx...i have you all to make me laugh...hehehehhee...

Andrew Poh...
~ so happy ho...can kiss me... for so long.... lolxxx....:P

The Wedding Diary
~ nice and touching movie...worth watching if you are getting married soon or couple during valentine's day....

IT'S MONDAY...NEED TO BACK TO WORKING LIFE....C YAA....

~PHING PHING~

TRUE!!!

2012-02-08T20:01:00.001+08:00

当人的情绪处于低潮时，对任何事情都提不起兴趣，
要学会转移注意力。有些事情既然已经成为事实，
就尝试着去接受，去面对。
一个人不可能改变世界，世界也不会因你而改变，
所能做的，就是适应世界，不钻牛角尖，
不要和别人攀比。你的生活，应该有你自己的精彩。

days pass

2012-02-07T22:09:00.002+08:00

holiday ending soon...so fast the days pass....

really passing so fast...everything is moving.... @_@

valentine is coming soon....so fast 1 year ler...last year i'm attached to someone but this year i'm single.... :D

well...this what god wants me to be...i only can accept it...

need to work tomorrow....~ not easy to be a banker...need to study de...scare scare...but i hope i'm ok.....:D

gdnitezz

~PHING PHING~

5/2/2012

2012-02-05T19:12:00.004+08:00

how many months pass? (doesn't know how to count anymore)

life is unpredictable ... i also dunno how to explain my current status and situation now.... let me settle down my job first....

i only want to focus on my job and not love...

GAME

had a BBQ dinner @ Alson Lim house last night...
~ he really sot de..think all the geli vegetable and make it as juice and play...omg....(ginger, celery, tomato, bitter gourd, lemon, wasabi, bitter leong cha (kwong wo tong) and what else i also forget jor....) siao....

~ i drank the lemon and bitter leong cha...omg..i share the drink with his friend...his friend drink 1st and tell me still ok la...got the lemon taste..then i drink...i feel like vomit out...geli....now also still feel geli....ewwwwww......
but fun la...rather than play with alcohol...still ok la...hehe....

~ coughing non stop now...@_@"

~ tired and sleepy....

~ what else i can do...than eat sleep eat sleep eat fb sleep......@_@

~ omg....my life..

~ so ngam o...Andrew wanna buy this car his car number plate so ngam is my car number but terbalik jiek....@_@

lolxx.....

~phing phing~

but

2012-02-03T23:53:00.002+08:00

***********************

survive 2nd day of work...lolx

2012-02-03T19:07:00.004+08:00

4.45am...balik rumah...kekeke.....

PFS wearing short skirt.... low cut ... high heels...omg...lolx.xx...

i also not bad today...kekekekeke....need buy higher heels d...lolxx....

kerja 2 hari cuti 4 hari.... kerja 3 hari cuti 2 hari... :D
~phing phing~

Tired

2012-02-02T22:07:00.002+08:00

got thru my 1st training by my branch manager...
going to have few test to get some license

overall still ok .... keep it up baby....

GOOD LUCK!!!

1st day @ Hong Leong Bank Puchong Branch

2012-02-02T08:08:00.000+08:00

GOOD LUCK JOEY TAN!!!

:D

SUDDENLY miss him (D)

2012-02-01T23:02:00.002+08:00

he came across.. i miss him... the one who break my heart into pieces... and i miss you right now...

what's wrong with me today!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

grrrrrrr!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Valentine Coming Soon

2012-02-01T22:36:00.001+08:00

~going to 1 year old soon...

means Valentine's Day soon...

~OGG~

10th Day of Water Dragon

2012-02-01T19:50:00.002+08:00

is my last day of holiday.... (3 weeks just pass) that was so fast!!!!!

starting my new job as Mortgage Specialist @ Hong Leong Bank Puchong Branch tomorrow...
suddenly feel so scare to work new job...lolx... trying something new ...
trying no harm right? .. :D

Chinese New Year gonna end soon... days just pass so fast.... 2012.....

a fresh year... new challenge ... new environment... new ..... all new la..

GOOD LUCK TO MYSELF FOR NEW CHALLENGE TOMORROW...

~PHING PHING~

i'm sorry again

2012-01-30T00:17:00.003+08:00

i really doesn't have the guts to start the relationship...
i'm sorry Andrew... i doesn't wanna lose a fren ... i'm really sorry....

i doesn't know how to tell you...but i really doesn't wanna start it now...i'm really sorry

i know you are serious...i'm not blind....but just being stupid...whenever you try to hold my hand or even try to hug me.... i know you are a good guy...i don't deserve it now...i'm really sorry....

my tears once again drop while writing this blog...the love is there...i was shock and my heart is beating fast when you send me "i love you" justnow...and asking me to give both of us a chance and you are serious....

i wanna type i'm sorry instead i type don't play....i'm really sorry,....i doesn't wanna hurt you....

ALL I CAN SAY IS I'M SORRY...

i'm really hiding myself at the corner being a useless person in relationship..i'm really scare to step out from that corner.... he really hurts my heart deeply till i can't see the lights for me to get out from the dark.... i'm really scare....

SORRY! gdnitez and sweet dream to you....

~joey tan~

7th day of Water Dragon

2012-01-29T10:50:00.002+08:00

Something happen to my dear last night and me as well....

i was so messed up yesterday....

i had a movie date with Andrew yesterday ...watching Journey 2 (3D) in sunway...when i step out of my house into his car...my heart was pumping fast...i feel weird....i never had this before... when ever he try to touch me i feel weird too... i really don't know what happen.... till dear last nitez having the same problem with a guy as well....i told Andrew i'm scare to be in relationship again...Andrew send me back something....and i'm hurt by my ex

~ a couple break up there is definitely hurt and sad there...except one of them doesn't had the love anymore...and scare is just ownself hiding from the truth and doesn't wanna get thru it!His ex leave him during his most hard time in his life..so he ask me...izit he suppose to die at that time? break up means the person is not belongs to you anymore...letting go the person who don't belongs to you anymore is doing the right things...keep on dragging with the person who don't love you anymore is just being stupid.....

all i want now is my work 1st...the feeling is there...anyway...you already treating me as gf now........is just me.....

wish everyone Happy Birthday with love....:D

~phing~

6th day of Water Dragon 2012

2012-01-28T10:04:00.002+08:00

Morning Everyone.... it's the 6th day of chinese new year....

this year chinese new year seems down... not really what i expected (this tells me not everything i want it will be that way...is just like my previous relationship...i'm really stubborn over the relationship till myself end up this way now....i've never been this hurt before ... but i still can't let it go...whats wrong with me? being so stupid......last night....again.....i had a primary school little gathering....everyone thought i'm in a relationship and was shock i break up....only kenneth know i'm single....i feel so hurt of answering the question again...why you break up....what happen? i feel my heart being poke by thousand of knife when i answer that question again....after answering their question i told myself is a past!!! i can't do anything over it anymore...

~forget about it~

Water Dragon Year....
~all the chinese new year movie in cinema i'm done :D
gonna watch Journey 2 today...lolx....
~ had a primary school gathering since after we din meet each other for so many years..... everyone no change on appearance but everyone is a professional now...we have Malaysia Airline Pilot, Auditor, Accountant, Singer, Model, Malaysia Beauty Pageant , Bankers, Magician, and Property Agent. ...... All is Primary Friends since Standard One!!!! i miss you all alot alot alot alot alot.....

Hope more to come ya...:D

~phing phing~

Water Dragon Year 2012

2012-01-23T09:04:00.003+08:00

wooohooo....

GONG HEI FATT CHOY EVERYBODY!!!!

lolx....kena boom last night for wearing dark color clothes!!! today i'm RED!!!!!!

answering a question that i hate to answer!!! where is you boyfriend? is he coming tomorrow? must bring him come tomorrow to get ang pau!!! ahhhhh.... I WAN FAINT D!!!

I'M SINGLE!! whole family say!! no worries you will get a better 1! lolx......HAHAHAHA....today still got more relatives...OMG!!! help!!!!!!

lolx....

stomach not feeling well on the 1st day of water dragon year!!! :'(

3 GOOD NEWS THIS YEAR!!!

1) sista getting married!!!!!!
2) Peter getting married!!!!
3) Chui Ling Pregnant!!!! wooohooooo.....:D

~phing phing~

Dragon Year 2012

2012-01-21T22:50:00.003+08:00

Tomorrow is the ending of Rabbit year and entering Dragon year on monday....hope eveything bad goes away!!!!! good things comes in!!!!

~ this chinese new year...seems plain to me.... nothing much to be happy to celebrate....dunno why i have this feelings....

being single for about 2 months..? hmmm...i dunno how long d....seems something missing .... lolx... something something..i dunno what....

recently "he" came back to chat with me.... asking for a date....but i rejected it!

lolx....

i'm still me.... still the same...nothing different....... this is better for me...i guess..... not putting high hope on my love life .... just my job !!

i just wanna focus on my new job....which starts after chinese new year...

love is a no for me now no matter what you guys do...i'm sorry....

being friends is better than enemy..... all my ex-bf is my fren...except him..being so stubborn.....my fault being so useless i guess...anything... i don't mind anymore...is just urself .... ..

me is me ... you is you...

HAPPY CHINESE NEW YEAR IN ADVANCE!!!

hope everyone who drive back to short or long journey ....please be safe while driving....remember your love ones....and hope this Dragon Year 2012 bring everyone joy, happiness, wealth, health , loves, and everything that you wish!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

HAPPY CHINESE NEW YEAR!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

LOVE YOU ALL....

~JOEY TAN EE PHING~

I'm Sorry

2012-01-19T19:54:00.003+08:00

saying i need 3 years to be in relationship again...i feel myself making a joke...i'm really sorry...but i really need the "time".... i really still can't let go the previous... i'm telling everyone i'm ok! but i'm not! sorry Andrew... i told you to let go...u again and again...ask me...the answer will be the same.... not now...

~ you came in the wrong timing...where i was hurt by someone...that i really love...the hurt is not heal yet... i put myself into busy mode....hope to forget him...but i still can't ... i know i hurting you as well rejecting you but i have no choice coz i don't wanna start when my heart and mind still have someone else...it truly unfair for you...still young and still early....

new year is next week...busy year ahead perhaps....changing into new job.... hope is fine for me! i feel so lost right now....

anyway...i know i still have my friends around me!

LOVE IS DEFINITELY A NO RIGHT NOW IN MY MIND!

~PHING PHING~

you are still....

2012-01-16T23:11:00.000+08:00

Baby ...you are still the best! :)

~phing~

cny too fast!

2012-01-14T17:06:00.002+08:00

OMG...looks like i only got 1 week to prepare for CNY!!!

too short period of time....Pedicure and Manicure... DONE!

lots of things not done yet...charm mou....@__@"

service car also not yet done...oopsieeee....

tonight going to watch Awakening! Andrew Poh don't scare me a...kill u de a! :P

~phing phing~

Finally

2012-01-12T22:02:00.002+08:00

Finally i put down my 4 years burden...working in this firm really a headache i have since 2 years ago...

colleague (some) is my most unhappy things i been going thru all this while....i'm so happy that i leave

but i appreaciates (eunice, vinnie, beverly, zarina, azura, stella, eleana, dewi and celina...) really appreaciates you girls gone thru the fun and sad ....thanks for the gift...i will remember you all forever...you bunch of notty girls is really my time ...

especially eunice and vinnie!!! even we are not long together you 2 is my best friend...thank you

sorry to make you 2 cry with me today...zarina too...thank you....

hope you all will stays happy ya...my full wish on you all....love you all so much!!!!

Thank you.........!!!!!!!!!!! no words can describe my towards you all....

love you all

~phing phing~

i got 2 weeks holidays

2012-01-11T23:17:00.002+08:00

i've been working for 4 years in the same company...well i resigned last 2 months ago...i suppose my last day of work is 30/1/2012...but today...boss say tomorrow is my last day....(which i need to go 4 places) and back office to settle my stuffs....well....no words i can describe this office anymore...is really bad if i wanna say it....anyway...it gonna end soon....i'm enough of torture...!! thank you..!!!!!!!

starting my new job the monday after the chinese new year week!1 it means i have 2 weeks of holiday with paid salary!!!! wow...

i'm doing my shopping list and beauty list...wahahahahhaa
!!!!

1) HAIR!
2) MAKE UP!
3) CLOTHES < for chinese new year, work, party and casual>
4) SHOES AND HEELS AND SLIPPER
5) ACCESSORIES
6) BODY
7) NAILS
8) SPA AND MASSAGE!!!!!!

wow....lots ha.... 1 week...let's shopping....

planning for Redang in March....Andrew going also...lolx...dunno what will happen o...lolx...no eye see.....lolxxx.....

Cammy dear ask me a funny question today....~ what if Andrew make chocolate and give me as a gift.....O.O lolx....sot jor...:P

went to GM Klang today.....nothing is cheap there now...all expensive and is fake geh...!! hmmm....malaysia boleh lo.....!!!

new year! new job! new resolutions! new friendsssssssss! new love? lolx....nah...not now...later la....lolx...you continue chase la ha...lolxx...:P

till i'm ready! kekekekeke...soh lou....bluek!

wah....really need to arrange my time d...kekekeke....

tata

~phing phing~

another day

2012-01-10T22:19:00.002+08:00

Andrew ask again last night....
~if i'm the previous me..i already say yes....but ...this few times he ask i did not say yes...and well i rejected him with some stupid answer...i can't believe i did that to him....

haix... i guess i really put too much love on "him" (the previous) till myself really scare now....

Andrew
~ you really good...i also dunno how...accept or not...the story you told me really makes me feel so.....(erm ..dunno how to describe the feeling ~ good feeling) you is telling me just ask my own heart i should pick up whatever i see now rather than empty hand...coz you are there for me to pick! lolxxxx

chinese new year is near...i don't feel the mood...getting fat and fat....ugly...sad....no money to buy new cloths ..haha....kelian joey tan....:P

hope something new in dragon year!!!

~phing phing~

my heart

2012-01-08T12:46:00.003+08:00

LAST NITE ~

i was with Andrew in Mcdonald Kuchai Lama, HH standing just behind me for order...i turn behind..i thought i saw wrong person ..did not say HI...even her...my heart told me i was bad did not say hi...but she din even treat me as fren...then why should i still do tat? well... the history between me and HH is bad....

Went out with Andrew to sunway...
~ i still can't accept him..i don't know why...even he wanna hold my hand i will still let go.... i really doesn't have the feeling to start a relationship right now and hurt someone....coz i'm not ready yet....i'm sorry

Jack & Jill
~ a nice comedy for laughing.!!! to those who haven't watch it!! go watch!!!!!!

Ryan Woo
~ almost everyday he whatsapp me...weird... telling me..... (is history dear) don't think anymore

Planning 2012
~ i just wanna be in good in my job and family and friend...not relationship yet...So sorry...no matter what you all do...i will still be single till i'm fully ready...

holidays
~ planning ahead...i wanna go lots of places !!!! pls make my wish come true!!!!!

sunday...staying home...accompany mummy....:D

~phing phing~

am i stupid or what?

2012-01-04T07:51:00.002+08:00

rejected Andrew...O.O".....last night....

but of course he know why i rejected him....i told him i just break up 2 months...that's too fast to be in a relationship again...if he say those words to me the past years...maybe i will straight away say yes....but i'm no longer the pass me...

i'm really scare to be in love again before this...but actually i'm not suppose to be this way.... life have to go on...i need to appreciate those who loves me...but to those who doesn't loves me...i still hope they are happy....

i told Andrew, if he tired of chasing and waiting he can let go anytime...after the last night chat with Andrew, i feel better.....i just went out with him 3 days and he exactly know what am i thinking and how i act...

but after break up in the previous relationship...i dun really believe what guy says...i'm suppose to be more tough now!!!

let it be....if the times comes....it will come....

enjoy the 1st day of school....

~PHING PHING~

new year eve...and new year....

2012-01-02T01:43:00.003+08:00

last friday we was in geographer (me , sun and cammy, how and john) bt did not expect we knew 3 new guys frens there....

there sit next to our table asking us 3 times to join them...at last we agree to join ...

new year eve...i was with Andrew..we went for 3 movie in the same day....

1) new year's eve
2) we bought a zoo
3) 23:59

the day did not end with just movie lunch and dinner...we went to countdown in geographer...joining cammy and the new guy fren...saw voon jack there..we join vj table... kent also there...

happy to be with you all during the last day and start the new 2012....
i cried on 2012 ..because kent said about david... after all i feel i should just put it down...Andrew shock i cried... anyway David had a gf right now....just wish to go..... i know is not good to start with cries...but just put it as...i cry it out just because i'm glad that i have all my frens with me!!!!! and i'm not alone!!!!!!!!

i'm the kind who just broke up not even 2 months...into new relationship...
(i'm not the old joey tan anymore)

i learn a lot of things after broke up with david... i learn to climb up when i fall to hurt myself...i learn to let go the past ...i learn to know what am i suppose to do...i learn to grow up.....

kent say i'm much more happier now... i can do what ever i wan...without acknowledging anyone....

thanks to Andrew who help me to drink yesterday...if not i guess i will drunk...

i also learn to be patient... i'm glad that i learn alot....

great year .... to be more happy for myself....cheerss...:D

love you all....

~phing phing~

sunday (26/12/2011)

2011-12-27T19:46:00.004+08:00

1 day watch 2 movie with Andrew...lucky the movie not bad if not i sleep de ler inside...

hehe...both movie worth watching...

while watching Alvin..there is a little girl with mushroom hair sitting next to me..
she keep pulling my jacket and play her saliva...she so cute..at the make the saliva sound..then she keep pull my jacket call me jie jie...hehehehe....hehe...Andrew also laugh...hahaha...

he keep telling me he bought twin seat...but the cinema so small mana ada twin seat la...haha...sit so near for wat...sit normal sit also sit so near d..sit twin seat ma more near =.="...lolx

he is really a good guy...but maybe just because starting wanna be with me..... but i really need sometimes to digest all the previous thing...

nice outing with you...next week again ya...we go countdown...:D

~phing~

2011

2011-12-26T09:44:00.002+08:00

Christmas day just past! .... another new year is coming...

last year (2010) and this year (2011) ~ lots of happy, fun, sad and bad memories ...

santa : i don't know did my wish come true....but i guess yes...my wish is to forget all the sad things that had happen before...and so i did...

me, cammy and sun rite now is single....no words can describe any of our future right now...all we know to enjoy each and every moment together .... when there is the time to still enjoy...

2012 i will be also changing to a new job...hope it goes smoothly...

relationship in my mind right now is totally blank...all i want is to be happy...

i doesn't wanna hurt anyone or let anyone hurt anymore...

trying to change myself till i fully confident to go on with relationship...

i'm not a kid anymore.... i got my own responsibility to take care my own and family....rather than just into relationship neglecting my love one and the ones who care me.....

my face look mature but not inside...hope the new job makes me a better person....

breaking up giving me a lesson especially the recent once...telling me i should open my eyes bigger to know each other better before going to the next step...

no turning back when it already happen but try move on what i have now..

what i have now is family and friends...(who really cares about me)

going for Alvin and the Chipmunks and Sherlock Holmes with Andrew later...till now...
hope to 2011 end wells and start great in 2012....love you all so much....!!!

~phing phing~

1 week d

2011-12-22T22:51:00.002+08:00

hehehe...non stop whatsapp and bbm...

whenever i think of him he will appear in whatsapp or bbm or call my office....his voice melts my heart...

lolx...cute pumpkin...

monday we going for alvin and the chipmunk...:D ...

looking forward on that :D

nitez pumpkin....

i'm back:D

~phing phing ~

19th December 2011

2011-12-19T22:26:00.005+08:00

me...i already forget the pass...now i only know i need to walk thru my future...

hope everythings is fine...gdnitez to you...sweet dream :D

~phing phing~

meaning fulllll

2011-12-19T11:56:00.003+08:00

told by someone :dun bcoz some one that doesn't love us and reject the person who really love you...♥ ....

Mission Impossible (1st Movie ~ 17/`12/2011)

2011-12-17T19:04:00.001+08:00

1st movie ....1st start :D

happy weekend...:D

~phing~

Thanks for being there when i;m down

2011-12-17T01:34:00.002+08:00

Thanks for cheering me up when i broke up..

few years d...i din face the laptop chating with a guy till so late...

:D

previously i feel release when i chat with david...but after break up...

you are the next person...i feel no tension at all chatting with u :D

tomoro is our 1st movie together....

:D

...?

2011-12-16T22:22:00.003+08:00

totally end of everything....17/12/2011 (1am)

ur ex (ms.Kinki) really funny

2011-12-16T19:32:00.003+08:00

copy n paste some conversation here:-

Kinki L TiGer

*

actually i was thinkin......he still cant forgot me or wat else. did u feel this?

Kinki L TiGer

*

when i walk out from his house,he said his house's door will keep open and waiting me until i change up my attitude

Kinki L TiGer

*

can i ask u, did u know my things at his room.

Kinki L TiGer

*

any happen u n him u can share wif me. david is a nice person. 当初是我对不起他. i leave him cz my own attitude. but he is really a nice guy.

Kinki L TiGer

*

actually i was thinkin......he still cant forgot me or wat else. did u feel this?

dunno how to copy a...just copy from chat n paste here...she very funny lo...tell me all this...i find it funny...

=.=" don't know how to reply her also...

i did not expect she will private message me today...but it makes my day smile...i was in office looking at the computer screen n laugh...my friend ask me you sot liao a...?? lolxxx...

~love~

COMPLETELY

2011-12-15T22:36:00.003+08:00

i should just completely put down all the past things...

life is way to long for me to go on... just continue moving...i just found out a friend of mine divorce after married for 5 years and had a son....

break up is just a lesson of life...much more people is more pity and need the love than me....the less fortunate...the ones without family...i should not be the one who is sad just because of break up...

life still need to go on..

i doesn't need because of my own thinking...blocking you...i'm sorry...

after talking to my dear friend who had divorce after married 5 years....nothing is impossible....

breaking up is better than each other doesn't know what to do when together...(sorry for giving you all the problems when we were together..)

i understand nothing can be force...being natural is the best...

my friend divorce,,,suppose he cry...but i'm the one end up crying there....

maybe he is a guy...he keeps his smile on face but his heart is crying....(Jim i know you can do it)....

now i understand why the guy still go on enjoy n put a smile on their face even something happen to them ( they really doesn't wanna let their friends and family to see himself sad ...he rather put on the fake smile on the face and go on ~ WHILE I'M THE ONE CRYING...PAI SEH!!!

maybe i tahan too long...i really burst out my tears in Munich justnow....pai seh pai seh.....

i just need to be myself...you love me or not doesn't matter...as long as i'm being myself...there is one day ... someone will recognize me..and be my soulmate....

appreciates whatever i have now...before is too late...
(family, friends, job, and loves from everyone who loves me)

gonna change environment of work soon! after chinese new year...

give me 3 years....i promise myself ... i CAN do it!!! nothing gonna stop me ......
my target now...(3 years)
all my wish list.... and everything!! I PROMISE MYSELF I WILL DO IT!!!

DAVID YEE ~ you not that siu hei haii maii a....

~PHING PHING~

new member..but i miss hyppo...:'(

2011-12-14T21:46:00.002+08:00

faith?

2011-12-14T18:53:00.002+08:00

my blackberry memory card just "kong".....all my things lost!

i thought i can't see him anymore...can't listen to his voice anymore....i have photos and his voice notes....but now...no more...all lost! i dunno what had happen....

the god really want me to wash away all the memories with him?

~joey tan~

1st time blocking the person that i love the most in my life

2011-12-14T07:12:00.002+08:00

this is the only way to not looking at your facebook...knowing what's your update..with who and where and what....

i feel so hurt .... by you...but i still need to go on...

the more i hate you the more i admit i still love you....

i'm really being childish on this matter...

but i feel this is the only way for myself ...

crying is no longer a way for me ... i did not change...and i guess forever i'm like this....

nothing can change me...

loving a person is not about changing the person.... when i'm with you...you have your bad side too...but thinking at that time...love you is just the most important...but you are not...you mind is just wanna change me...

maybe i should just wait for the time i'm totally mature...

or maybe i should be single forever...

i'm putting my smile up even my heart feels hurt and painful and sad....

i just need to accept what the god gave me....

i dream on you last night... wake up and finally is just a dream....no longer beside me sleeping no longer cuddling me...

hope i could be stronger than i was....

~phing~

i'm just being stupid and last forever

2011-12-13T07:28:00.006+08:00

you say it all.. will never learn... will never correct!... but you are just the same!

nothing much i can say.... all is over! IT'S OVER!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

is just useless wasting my time to still think of you.... i'm just hurting myself...

the more i say ...the more i think...the more i do...is just hurting myself....putting myself in a situation where i feel stupid!

being laugh by you and your friend....(i'm enough of all this)

is really happy being with you...but i'm just stupid to love you!

the words that you post in facebook hurts me! i din even did that to you in facebook...i only post it my blog! you wanna let the whole world know how good you are ? you did it! i blocked you! you can continue be youself on facebook! whatever you post from now on in facebook i can't read! thank you for all your words that hurt me !

my last to you....

~phing~

i'm just stupid

2011-12-12T20:16:00.002+08:00

i wondering...am i the only one who loves you...where you don't take the relationship seriously when we were together..?

why am i the one who is hurting right now...and you doesn't feels anything!!!

why am i the one who is sad....crying and hurt....when i sees you flirting and happy around....

why i can't just put down this relationship...where this idiot won't be in my life anymore...

when in relationship tells you all the sweetest words...makes me feel stupid for listening to it!!! fuck it!!!

you makes me phobia to love another guy!!! ... why you wanna treat me this way?

did i kill you in your last life? you come back and revenge?

till now i still feel the hurt...but you seems nothing!! and very happy!!

your ex is true! i will feel myself stupid when i knew what kind of guy you are!!! ....!!!! she is telling the truth! !!!

all is a lies!!!

useless for putting my time, love and effort on you!! where you don't even appreciate it!!!!

fuck it!!! FML!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

haizx

2011-12-11T21:21:00.001+08:00

haixx...

heart feel so pain haizxxx

....break up 1 month....

2011-12-08T21:18:00.003+08:00

currently flirting with a guy....school mate somemore...

am i putting myself into trouble?

am i doing the wrong thing...flirting with him...?

this is the only way for me to forget david.....??

try to put myself to drunk...

flirting with unknown guy is ok..but this is my schoolmate...am i doing right or wrong?

somemore flirt till sex topic also come out....

will both of us get hurt...or am i hurting myself right now!!! i dunno what myself doing right now....

!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!1

just hope nothing happens....end of this relationship..is really hurt...alot!!!

putting myself into stupid and crazy matter.....

8/12/2011.....1 month after we broke up.......

~phing~

i still love you

2011-12-05T19:53:00.000+08:00

i still love you and miss you...

still

2011-11-29T20:25:00.000+08:00

i still miss him and can't forget him
i really doesn't know how he can forget me so easily and fast :'(
haix

had a dream

2011-11-28T18:14:00.002+08:00

I realize it's a dream, i hope is real....i was so sick...david is here to take care of me justnow...but i realize it's just a dream... haizx.....it look so real but it's just a dream....

haix

.........

2011-11-24T21:50:00.000+08:00

nothing to say....i still miss you...

hope you are fine...

bad day

2011-11-23T19:34:00.003+08:00

i had bad day today ... kena kacau by some unknown bastard....in my mine...i should call someone to talk to...you came across my mine 1st... but i hold back...coz i know you are not my bf anymore...i should not disturb you anymore.... i dunno who to get help with.. i'm really to rely on you...is really stupid to keep on thinking of you...

really hope we were together now...but everything is too late...and it won't anymore in my life...coz you already don't love me...

everytime i look at the phone...i really hope it rings and is you...as bf again..but this call it will never ever appears again in my life....

i'm just being stupid...

i open up my purse n our photo still inside...my colleague saw it and ask why do i still keep it...i really wanna tell them i still love you...doesn't wanna let go...just keep it in my own heart... even you don't love me anymore... but i didn't ..i just say i forget to take it out .....

hope everything's is fine.....

~EE PHING~

mood

2011-11-22T19:44:00.000+08:00

EMO EMO EMO EMO EMO EMO EMO EMO EMO EMO EMO EMO EMO EMO EMO EMO EMO EMO EMO EMO EMO EMO EMO EMO EMO EMO EMO EMO EMO EMO EMO EMO EMO EMO EMO EMO EMO EMO EMO EMO EMO EMO EMO EMO EMO EMO EMO EMO EMO EMO EMO EMO EMO EMO EMO EMO EMO EMO EMO EMO EMO EMO EMO

> i miss him :'(

EMO EMO EMO EMO EMO EMO EMO EMO EMO EMO EMO EMO EMO EMO EMO EMO EMO EMO EMO EMO EMO EMO EMO EMO EMO EMO EMO EMO EMO EMO EMO EMO EMO EMO EMO EMO EMO EMO EMO EMO EMO EMO EMO EMO EMO EMO EMO EMO EMO EMO EMO EMO EMO EMO EMO EMO EMO EMO EMO EMO EMO EMO EMO

WHAT...u say again!!!!!!!!!

2011-11-21T19:19:00.001+08:00

A BABY IN THE STOMACH.....WORM LEI GEH HAII MAII O??? MOI SCARE ME LEH....somemore is 1 month half....o.O

REGRET

2011-11-20T22:31:00.002+08:00

I feel regret i did not appreciates you...i really regret....
i'm the one who makes the relationship end this way...

I REALLY REGRET THIS MY WHOLE LIFE....

you are really the man i love...i really feel regret to let go you...is all because my un-mature attitude ... feel so useless..

if the time can return to back..i really hope to change it....

i really regret this.....

You are not my cup of tea

2011-11-20T16:30:00.002+08:00

thanks for bringing me out justnow..but you really not my cup of tea...you are not my type....

how bad he treat me...i stil love him... coz he is the only one that i love till i die... i know me n david will not together again...but this is the only love that i'm into after all this years.....looking thru how he treat me now...it's really hurt.. but that's the choice i did...and no way of turning back....... the way he flirts with other girl is really so hurt... the only thing i can do is to hate you more....to forget you...i try but still can't ...i really feel so hurt...you really love with friend more than me....

nothing is perfect in this world...is just see each couple wanna work it out or not....i still thinking previously you hold me back and say you want me try till i can...but at last...

you are enjoying your life so happily , you really din feel the sad at all....

i really not important in your heart even when we are together....

you are the only guy i approach for relationship twice and rejected twice...
do you know how deep i love you..when you hurt me so deeply now... do you know how i feel..but you are happy...have you ever think of me when you do those things to me? saying those hurt words to me?

all guy is the same

2011-11-20T11:59:00.004+08:00

this year relationship is really fucking hurt....

sorry

2011-11-20T02:27:00.001+08:00

i think i need to say sorry to you....u did not filter it...i guess in fb new ...sorry....

:(

nitezzzz

EMO

2011-11-19T23:05:00.001+08:00

i really miss him....really feels so hurt when he flirt with other girls!!!!!!!!!!!!!

really hope the time can return .... :'(

my head gonna burst!!!!!

2011-11-19T20:29:00.001+08:00

the pain is back

2011-11-19T12:24:00.002+08:00

my left stomach pain is back....enjoy the life till die..

i wonder why i keep thinking of you...looking at everything we did before...while you are so happy enjoying your life right now...it's really hurt .....

i did say something to someone yesterday night....i consider it ...but i'm scare to be in relationship anymore...i don't trust myself anymore...

i rather to be friend than get hurt again either you or me...i can't accept this anymore ....it's really very hurt... thank you for being so good to me when i need you during these days...but i'm really scare... the phobia is with me since the break up with david ! i doesn't have the guts to try new relationship anymore....

you are a good guy...lot's of girls expect you this kind of guy...no point wasting your time on me... coz i rather we are friend than if we break up we hurt each other .....like what i'm going thru now...i doesn't wanna hurt a friend since we are schoolmates....

yesterday night.....a hug is just what i needed after the break up....thanks alot alot alot alot alot!!!!

I'm getting new job...put my self more to working hours...to forget him completely...
the relationship that i thought will last ...but nothing seem to be forever..

love for me right now is a phobia...i'm scare and useless....this much more hurt than the 4 years relationship with Kelvin.....

i did not hate you coz i know it's my own problem...you seem to get someone to step into your room last night...a great start for you....

i've been thinking to block you in facebook since you already filter me from reading what you post in other ppl's wall...

~ PHING PHING~

so boring!

2011-11-18T14:00:00.001+08:00

sien of this office....sien of relationship!!! u block me!!!
!!!!!!

haixxxxx

SUDDENLY

2011-11-17T22:24:00.000+08:00

he came across...

I MISS HIM ;'(

Another approach from Samsung

2011-11-16T18:11:00.002+08:00

Interview in Hong Leong Bank this morning, everything is OK....the interview only takes 20minute...kekeke...that was fast....

it was 10 something i thought to hang out in klcc...but lazy to get in there...then i turn up going to sunway pyramid...shop around...got a bikini..haha...for sabah and future beach used......

then have a date with Dear....@ star village.... :D ...

raining quite heavy today....then end up snoozing a nap justnow...i just wake up...

uncle from sydney is coming back tonite....rain so heavy dunno ada delay or not tonight flight.....

schedule up my free time for the week....

tomorow going pasar malam with dear, friday nitez gathering, saturday morning till noon gym and manicure, sunday dunno yet...next week dear is not here...:'(....

soon she comes back from Dubai!! WE ARE GOING TO SABAH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

WOW..........................:D

enjoy to the max....:D

oh...wait...the approach from SAMSUNG...should i apply ????

or should i just stick to HONG LEONG BANK??? arggghhh....HOW A????

my own future......BUT WORKING IN HONG LEONG I MAY BE NEED TO GO SOMEWHERE ELSE TO WORK....i really dunno....haixxx......

struggling....

will type my resigning letter after my dinner...hope changing job is my best choice......

PRAY~~~~~

~ PHING PHING ~

THIS IS TRUELY WHAT I'M GOING THROUGH NOW.....IT'S REALLY PAINFUL

2011-11-15T22:18:00.000+08:00

When I close my eyes think of you
And the time we’ve had been through
Even though were for apart right now
I remember back when you were here with me
How you’ve make my world complete
But now I’m left alone
We talked about love and hope
Wishing we could start a life our own
I wish that I could live without you
Why did you tear my heart apart
You said you’ll love me from the start
All those painful things you’ve put me through
But I’m still loving you
I’ve tried to give my best to you
I don’t deserve the things you do
Everything has gone to memories
I just wish I konw the truth behind the lies

Why did you tear my heart apart
You said you’ll love me from the start
All those painful things you’ve put me through
But I’m still loving you
I’ve tried to give my best to you
I don’t deserve the things you do
Everything has gone to memories
I just wish I konw the truth
behind the lies

WHEN I CLOSE MY EYES I THINK OF YOU AND THE THINGS WE HAD GO THROUGH, I STILL LOVE YOU

2011-11-15T19:45:00.002+08:00

I still love you...flashing back the memories....but is just useless....everything is gone and too late....

IS TOO LATE

GOD...CAN YOU PLEASE HELP ME!!!

2011-11-14T19:16:00.002+08:00

shit man! i'm listening to voice clip notes that we use to send to each other!!! ...hiaaz.haizxxx....god...can you help me to forget him please!!!!!! this is torturing me!!!!!

:'(!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

THOSE MESSAGE HE SEND IN FACEBOOK AND BBM IS REALLY HURT!!! FUCK IT!!!HELP ME FORGET THIS GUY PLEASE!!!!!! I DUN WANT HIM IN MY BRAIN ANYMORE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!GET LOST!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

i really giving my old toys to other ppl....ENJOY IT BITCH!!!!!!!!!!!!! !!!!

JOEY TAN

Sunday 13/11/2011

2011-11-13T12:02:00.002+08:00

I really wanna forget him ... but i dunno why he still running inside my brain...flashing thru...really hate the feeling....

it really so hurt this i feel the pain is not curable...but i know myself can do it!
friends are all by my side...had a gathering yesterday night...feel so happy and fun...
i really can't at my own...i will thinking stupid stuff....

you are really more happy than when you are in a relationship with me...thinking back...it's really a wrong for us to start the relationship...i regret to follow you home on that night....every guy is the same...i thought you are different..but at the end..you are just same as the others...................

letting go is hurt...but i guess this is the best choice i know who are you (finally) ~ before we start relationship...we just know about 4 -5 months? i capture all the message you sent to me....but few days ago i delete all the message...reading it ...it will more worst for me.....

you really enjoy your single days with all your friends....you seem to be the happiest now...you are right...you are really a bad guy that i should not falls to ...

there is a valentine card and ODD you gave me...i took the card and read again...everytime i read the card my tears drop coz i feel so hang fok and not sad..
but after break up...i read it .is feel sad coz i believe you that you are really the guy that suppose to be in my life..after all i'm wrong! you just want to fool around...

it will me hardest time for now....i'm a human....is not easy to let go someone you love deeply...but you are not..you are so happy now...you did it so easy...(means our love in your heart is not that deep that mine...)

i promise myself to change myself ... i won't be in a relationship again ... i just wanna be alone....i'm not the type that suppose to be in a relationship...i'm suppose to be lonely whole life...

as i say ...

LOVE IS JUST A GAME...
~ when there is a fight, there is a loser or winner....for the loser it will be a "game over" but if you are the winner you can continue the fights for the next level...life is like that too... you need to transform yourself with better weapons and strategy to up your level of life...just doesn't hope to be a loser and wins every level you up......

good luck

~ phing phing~

disappointed

2011-11-12T09:57:00.003+08:00

I'm really disappointed on you !!!

~SAMSUNG WAVES ~ STUPID PHONE

joey

go trip n forget him

2011-11-10T22:33:00.002+08:00

BOOKED!! 1/12/2011 ~ 4/12/2011 going to SABAH with Cammy!

i really need the time to forget him....i'm telling myself he doesn't love me anymore...even i'm the one who say the break ...but i guess..few months ago he already dun love me..feel like i'm a doll..being used by him....

* this is the only way for me to forget him! think how fucking useless is him! wasting my time on him!!! he check in saying eating with babes ..suipoh...dun even care if u check in eating with lou po or dear .or whatever! i admit i'm jealous but this time my tears did not drop...i'm slowly wiping you off my brain!!!!!

friends are my medicine now....thanks everyone...love you all...

decide to change my job!! decide to save money to tripsssss!!!!

i'm going to change my appearance!!! treat myself with good stuff...love my self more....previously in that relationship...i think him 1st and not myself...i worry him he think i'm fan....i bbm me..he say i kacau him...:D thinking back....thanks for all that...thanks for agree breaking up...if not i really can't mature ....i can't think myself so stupid because of love....i give out every single things....

thinking back..maybe in previous relationship i hurt to many guys...so now....is back to me...

thanks for the agree of breaking up...make me more tough than i ever thought!! THANK YOU VERY MUCH DAVID YEE!

~PHING PHING~

i need to be ok no matter what from now on!

2011-11-09T19:29:00.002+08:00

No matter what i can't sad anymore...coz i know there is no turning point anymore for him to be in my life anymore....

decided to change my job! go somewhere where people doesn't know me...

single...

WELCOME MYSELF BACK TO SINGLE LIFE!!!! and GOOD LUCK TO YOU TO GET A BETTER GF! :D

but i guess i still cry for few more night......loves is greatest things our god gaves to us...but once break...it's really hurts....i really doesn't know why you didn't sad at all....you seems nothing...maybe you are really not serious to me .......thanks for that..

~phing phing~

single

2011-11-09T07:43:00.003+08:00

i have been crying whole nite...fuck that!! why should i continue crying where he not even sad and care me anymore?

i just feel like banging my car justnow when i otw to work....suddenly change...all turn dark....no return sign shows....i'm stupid..... 1 year (lots of memories laughter sadness tears pictures naughtiness stupidity funs joys friends and lots more!!!!)

i was screaming my lungs out in the car....i not even telling my family yet...doesn't know how to face where MYSELF DON'T EVEN KNOW HOW TO SETTLE MY OWN FEELINGS YET!!!

he is a guy or maybe he don't have the love feelings anymore...he don't feel the sad...
once you announced single....message and phone call came in...the 1st is "him" call me.... i wonder why you still treat me good when a year ago i rejected you so bad!! ...

... i guess i will be single forever...i know you will get a new girlfriend..and better girlfriend than me!! maybe the next to few month you be with another girl...

telling me if we are meant to be together we will back together...this is just the words where you wanna be single and get away.....

i'm really not OK!! everyone asking me...am i ok or not...i really wanna tell you all i'm not OK! i wanna cry! i wan him back....but can't anymore...i'm really useless.... useless for relationship...i'm suppose to be single forever!! i'm really really really stupid!!! fucking stupid!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh JOEY TAN EE PHING!! STOP BEING USELESS AND STUPID OVER A GUY WHO WON'T COME BACK TO YOUR LIFE ANYMORE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! FUCK IT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

~PHING PHING~

5/11/2010 - 8/11/2011

2011-11-08T19:17:00.003+08:00

Officially SINGLE AGAIN!!

it still feels hurt...but can't do anything over it anymore...the god wanna take it away from me...i have no choice...
he say if we are meant to be together we will get back...we don't know what will happen! From the day i starts to love..i do love you...both of us try to makes things better but at last we can't control anymore....leaving each other may be a good choice but not the best choice for me....but this is what i decide last week....

enjoyed the 1st anniversary and our last anniversary with you..thanks for being there with me over the weekend as i requested it! it's really unforgetable...i wanna tell you actually i really hate going to Look Out Point.....anyways..it had pass...is ok! over the pass 1 years...its really happy together with you...

asking you to bbm me telling me where r u...i'm not there to control you ...i just worried about you...is my attitude..memorable trip with you to PD and Penang...Memorable ODD, ODD cup, pendant and the earing....and photos.....

i lost my most memorable things too ..."your love"

i know i have no more chance to hug or even kiss you anymore...take care yourself...get a better gf...your frens....is important to you...as you say...enjoy it.....

i had learn a lot...being in to relationship is really not my thing....i should not start this earlier...i should listen ....anyway...the 1 year is really great...thanks for that...

enjoy you single...nothing bounds you anymore over the weekend....

i decide to leave KL to go somewhere ....i should try something that i haven't try before...stepping out with a deep breath...telling myself i can do it!
i doesn't need a bf shoulder....i have gf's shoulders and bf's shoulders..............

friends...i'm ok....this the mess i made up ....i'm the one who should clean up the mess....tidy up myself...... i fall down and hit myself and my leg is bleeding non stop....but ...... blood will stop once you clean the wound....it may be the most painful wound...but it only need times to recover....i know i can do it...

we are not enemy...we are still friend....just for the time being...let my wound recover...i'm not you...or maybe you don't feel the hurt...you can go and drink and find chicks with your friends....maybe you are really strong in recovering.......

take care yourself....really appreciate the 1 year (5/11/2010 ~ 8/11/2011) <3 YOU

~PHING PHING~

(He) is away....

2011-10-21T20:45:00.002+08:00

nothing to say....on the matter anymore.....silent...
~ just miss him....

mummy birthday tomoro...headache bringing her to where for dinner....
~ where where where?

horoscope today...

if single will finds a new one, if attach will be love bird, working will be good too....but ......................(****************)

boring....should i go Clubbing later with some not really well known friend...????
~ yes or no??????

ahhhrrhhhggg...it's friday.....raining somemore....grrr!!!!

~phing phing~

why

2011-10-19T19:40:00.001+08:00

why like i'm all in the wrong...can't you just as normal bbm or reply me...

i just want you as normal..you really can't do that ma? my heart so pain you know or not....

FUCKING SAD~!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Day 2

2011-10-19T16:55:00.002+08:00

All i need is just a bbm or call from you...i really miss you...:(

looking you post the things makes me so sour....but u still do it....

miss you...

i'm looking forward for our anniversary...i hope we will go on...hope you enjoy your trip too...wait till you come back....love you

~dear~

Our Love

2011-10-18T21:21:00.002+08:00

I believe our love is still there...is just becoz of argument you find it hard to accept things....i really love you....i really hope you are the soulmate i have been looking for all this while..

walk the life with me till the end....it may sound silly to you now...but this is all from the bottom of my heart...

i don't wish for forgiveness now...i wish for your love .....i just wanna spend the rest of my life with you *David Yee*...........

love you and gdnitez darling...

i love you

~phing phing~

18/10/2011

2011-10-18T16:46:00.002+08:00

Days without you (1st day)
> is really hurt...but i think is better to calm down....i really doesn't wanna lose you...but no choice to make this step..

i don't wanna break up but just wanna separate to let us think .... after so long...i guess the love is there...is just that we always because of small matter argue....
being with you is my happiest time....i forget whatever not happy....just only remember you....

it was hurt not to bbm you for a week plus but no choice...i hope you give me this week plus to get my self change....

i hope to enjoy the next weekend with you as usual going for movie and u send me home on sunday....i will buy "real steel" tickets on Friday....saturday nitez we will go watch it together....

im more than happy to let you go is you really doesn't belongs to me....\

take care yourself and enjoy you trip....will see you next saturday....

~phing phing~

had a wonderful birthday and relax trip

2011-09-26T22:07:00.003+08:00

thanks darling for being by my side last weekend to celebrate my birthday and relax trip for the year! looking forward to have more trips with you ..try go different places to relax...:D

love you forever.....i feel so happy whenever you are by my side..... i hope you too...:D

23/9/2011 - 25/9/2011 (Georgetown, Penang)

23/9/2011 (Day 1)

Had our breakfast in Old Town Coffeeshop ~ service wai's car ~ depart from Sri Manja (darling's house)

reach Penang around 3.30pm. ~ BATH & REST ~ Prangin Mall ~ Sushi King ~ Gurney Plaza ~ Gurney Drive ~ Northan Beach ~ REST

24/9/2011 (Day 2)

Make him wake up for Breakie in hotel ~ REST ~ Kek Lok Si ~ laksa ~ tortise pond ~ Gurney Plaza (buy movie ticket) ~ REST ~ Times Square ~ food gallery (food court that sells pork!! yummy!!! ) ~ gurney plaza ~ johnny english reborn ~ REST
**** weird incident ~ saw my ex in Penang...lolxx...Mr. Jason Tam Chee Hoo....lolxxxx...world is small*********************

25/9/2011 (Day 3)

DON'T FEEL LIKE GOING HOME!!!!! din had our breakie in hotel ~ pack up and head for breakie (dimsum yum yum) ~ wait darling's uncle bring us to temple to pray darling's grandpa and grandma ~ buy stuff ~ times square ~ food gallery ~ head back to Kuala Lumpur!!!

hehehe......

waiting our next trip :D ~ planning~

~PHING PHING~

%&^(&(^($(%*&())

2011-09-21T16:56:00.002+08:00

Fucker!!!! you really memalukan la!!!
just broke up not more than a month and you in a relationship....harrlow!! wonder did you ever respect her!!!

izit all guys the same or what....!! one of my ex also the same!! fuck you!!!

shame on ur family!!! having you this kind of son!!

haixxx.....love!! where is the love that actually comes?

i would actually see everyone is still sweet holding hands lovely walking the path!!!
(i saw this in Ipoh last saturday) the couple was almost 80 years old i guess!! they was holding their hands walking by the road side....

well i guess i can be this way...hope so.and you too...my dear!!!

support you always.....(when i'm down you and sun is there for me! don't worry you have us!!!!! ) let that fucker go do whatever he want!!! see when he die!!!!

~phing~

5 years!!

2011-09-20T20:46:00.002+08:00

i know you for 5 years...and you still wanna lie on the things...you knows i hate ppl lie to me!! haixxx.....and somemore keep on say NO!!...where i have the prove on my hand!!! shit him man!!!

~ and please dun keep on tell ppl u r my ex and .......!!!!! pls.....mind your own words!!

the words you send to me in BBM makes me wanna vomit! sorry i don't love you....please!!! and don't use other friend's facebook to talk me!!!! it makes me hate you more....!!!!!! if you continue i will block you from BBM!!!!

20/9/2011
~ went to chinese doctor....given chinese medicine!! doctor say no ice water / cold water during the intake of medicine!!!! :'(!!!!

sad!!!! can't breath now...HELP!!! ~ so hope to see darling BBM now ...saying he off work and stays home for rest without going out yam cha till late night....:)

This friday going to Penang with darling!! hope to recover soon....i feel so cold now...likes fever!!! haixx....

sorethroat ~ fever ~ nose block ~ can't breath!! ~~ lou gong where are you ...i super miss you...:'(

love.....

~bii~

Love with you

2011-09-19T20:39:00.000+08:00

i really love you...don't hope it will happen after the trip....

just give both of us a chance to be together to enjoy the life...not to lock up our life....i just wanna be ur gf.....

goes on our love till .......................................

:D love you....

counting down the days to our 1st trip (only both of us).......hope there is more after for every year....................

darling love you.....

know you are working so hard to make things better.....just hope you are careful....

please drink water......:D

muakzzzzz

~bii~

Penang

2011-09-19T07:43:00.002+08:00

Penang trip with darling this weekend (23/9/2011 - 25/9/2011)

hope to enjoy the trip this weekend with you....

~phing phing~

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2011-09-13T08:10:00.003+08:00

what is happening now? y i feel you keeping away from me........

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......waiting.....

2011-09-12T19:48:00.001+08:00

waiting his BBM

last weekend and my chinese date birthday

2011-09-12T17:44:00.003+08:00

Saturday raining when wanna play candle...so can't play....

i really wanna play candles....:'(

today already mooncake festival....

last saturday was my chinese date birthday.....(had a great bbq and shisha nite with dear n her frens)

thanks Cammy Dear for making the lovely cake for me...:D (it's taste great) ~ BUT WITHOUT DAVID YEE! X(

the actual date is just the next 2 weeks :D (i'm heading to Penang) :D

sick jor few days ler...(running nose non stop...)hate it hate it!!!!!!

recover soon pls!!!!

~phing~

silent day 4

2011-09-10T14:14:00.002+08:00

...................................................................(empty)

gonna make myself busy this few days to forget him.....not gonna think him ..... promise myself.....!!!!!

tonite will be another nitez with frens....bbq party....i wanna play candles! ....
coincidence today is my birthday (chinese) ....

i was a bit drunk last nitez....my mind was all him when i drive home........
but today...i wake up with a smile...thinking no matter how i miss him there is useless...coz he don't even cares....

no matter what i do...he insist to be this way....

so i may just forget about him and goes on happy........

keep myself busy is the only way for me not to look at the phone...keep looking did he bbm or not....coz there is no way he will bbm me................

just useless for being so stupid for him.....coz he did not even worry on me..

so just let it be ba...

~phing~

Chinese Birthday

2011-09-10T10:39:00.000+08:00

Today is my chinese birthday.....

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO MYSELF!!!!!!! <3

~PHING~

drunk

2011-09-10T01:15:00.001+08:00

realu drunk without u beside me...

miss you,,,

3rd day of silent ~ i really really really miss you david yee

2011-09-09T19:18:00.002+08:00

Darling...its the 3rd day...i really miss you....i feel so san fu without you....

can you please bbm me...i really miss you..can you please back to normal...

i really very miss you....i really promise you i won't repeat it again! i really love you....please....

~phing~ <3

i'm trying to stay strong

2011-09-08T21:32:00.002+08:00

but i cant! i really can't....

i really miss him....
i rely on you there is reason because the past 10month i'm with you all the time...

if you are not the one to look for who am i suppose too...

i really so miss you...
i was in pasar malam with cammy...my mind keep thinking you....

i'm really sorry, i really know i was wrong...i really want you back next to me! i can't afford to lose you in my life...i really hope you can forget it and back to me...

i really so sanfu without u...i feel like hanging in the middle of no wear...not even tied with string.....haix...i doesn't like this feeling...

my bleedings keeps on today....i'm really scare..i actually thought i'm pregnant..well maybe i think too much...i really don't know....

darling ~ i miss you, wondering do you miss me? i wanna listen u call me miao miao...i really so miss you...

i cant even talk to u or bbm u...i only can post it here....
i'm really sorry....could you please forgive me...i'm really sorry

~phing~ love you darling

update on silent day 1

2011-09-08T09:59:00.004+08:00

BBM he did not read since after yesterday conversation ( well maybe his battery is dead)

nothing can be stop right now, all i can do is wait for his BBM ....
enjoy your weekend no matter where you are....

calm down is just a stupid excuse for me...where my ex ( kelvin) did this too...he actually use this calm down moment to date a girl....

no matter what it is all i can do is to trust you .... but looking at situation now i feel lost....

hope this weekend Smurf will cheers me up....

still waiting your BBM....

~phing~ <3

silent

2011-09-07T22:04:00.002+08:00

i keep silent for a moment....

i actually starts to worry the bleeding....is non - stop....(hope someone is there with me to clinic...i'm so scare...if course i hope is David)

he told me going to Outstation this weekend..(well careful then...won't bbm to disturb you till u bbm me...)

i got this quote from someone

there is no 100% gf/bf, there is only 50% from each other to add together to become 100% ~ <3

you came thru my mind 1st time we meet up ~ you are the guy which i confess twice thru sms (and get rejected twice)

i know i'm like a kid ....i may not get 50% to perfect your annother half (50%) to become 100% but i really hope this relationship won't break....i really love you....

i know you are angry now....i dare to confess you twice..i'm willing to wait you...you may feel i'm stupid....but it's all depends on you...

if you insist it...i can't do anything...i may just accept to go on with life and keep you in my heart..but of course i dun hope this will happen...

"I WAN YOU IN MY HEART AND YOU PERSONALLY NEXT TO ME"

careful when you are outstation....

nitexxx

~phing~ <3 you

calm down

2011-09-07T13:53:00.003+08:00

Calm down ...won't disturb for the few days.

if you really insist to let go..i have nothing to say... but i won't let go ...

* bbm me back once you got your answer *

~phing~

2011-09-06T20:49:00.004+08:00

feelings

2011-09-03T00:20:00.001+08:00

Sudden feelings...

"YOU" still love her...

~phing phing~

next week to PD

2011-08-24T19:42:00.003+08:00

no holiday from office (only follows calender) stupid office :X

but going to PD with darling's sister on Wednesday and Thursday :D

SO FAST ( THE TIME PASS BY)

REMEMBERED last year 31/8/2010....

we meet up to watch Phua Chu Kang in Midvalley...and now we are couple....the laughter and bitters you gave me since we know each other ... really happy to be with you ...since i didn't let it go...:D

Penang on 23/9/2011 ~ 25/9/2011 ~ will enjoy our moments together ... :D

Love you....

~phing phing~

i wonder .....!!!

2011-07-28T20:09:00.002+08:00

wondering...why my friends who ever is in a relationship will puts their couple pictures together.....me n him getting lesser with photo....

not much photo on me and him uploaded...coz none of it it's taken....

feeling lost recently in relationship....don't why...he is a good guy...but i don't know why feel lost....like insecure somehow....don't know how to explain....

maybe i think too much....

something funny recently happen....my ex call me up and ask me too meet up...suppose to meet him last weekend..but i didn't .... due to some weird reason "i need to work"....he call me up again last night....asking me to go for a movie and dinner....he knows i'm in a relationship....curious on it.....he told me something that i feel weird also....over the phone he talk about the pass....

i don't even know how to answer him ... few years back thingy.......don't know who to speak to about this...post it here should be ok....

recently (few days ago...) i had a dream on Mr. TCW...feel funny in the dream...where i actually still thinking on it....when he online i'm gonna tell him about this......he in overseas now :P

that's all about.......till....

~phing~

updates my life status - 18/7/2011

2011-07-18T16:36:00.002+08:00

Dear Bloggi,

Sorry to leave you alone for sooooo long..:D ~ i'm back for writing again :D

would like to update my life status :-

currently still in love with David Yee :D
~ he is quite busy with his work nowadays ...everyday need to work till almost 11pm ....even saturday need to work and if there is fair for pc fair even sunday darling need to work.... :'( so charm.....

~ <3 you...he really so sweet de..(doesn't know how to explain but hehe....)

work:-
~ not much pressure nowadays...the workload still ok! :D

holiday:-
~ just came back from Sabah , a nice place to go...a nice place to relax....will go there again!!! hehe seafood seafood seafood :D

this year holiday plan:-
~ still no plan yet :'( ...can we just go somewhere relax just us?

sun sun's birthday:-
~ this weekend....darling got fair this weekend not free with me...should i go her party? haven't even buy present for her.....susahnya nak beli hadiah untuk dia....:P

this month
~ full of sickness lo.....haixx....really dunno what happe :X :P

hehe..hope everyone's well :D

~phing phing~

HAIXX

2011-06-23T20:38:00.000+08:00

GOT BF LIKE NO BF LIKE THAT...DUNNO WANT SAY WHAT LA....

~PHING~

haixx

2011-06-21T22:52:00.002+08:00

haizxxx...current feeling ~ alone!

2nd going sabah....

but actually wish to go somewhere (only me n him) but don't know when only can make it...haizxxx....don't know want say what la....

where also no need go la....suan la...looks like this year my birthday trip can't even see where am i going....normal plan few month ahead....even going to a local place example like penang also need think this think that...really hates it!!!

every year my birthday sure go somewhere...but it seems he is definitely busy and excuses say work..can't take leave....haixxxxx

don't know what to say la...seeing him is getting lesser i guess....work till night...haixxx....if i say more will say i don't understand him....i sick no one even care me!! i also don't know want say what ler!

~phing~

SIck Day

2011-06-13T20:34:00.002+08:00

Had a bad gastric today! :'(

went to doctor to get MC.....purposely off my phone ....on it back on 5.30 6 missed call.....thought what is so URGENT!! is just because of a report.....haixxx.. :X

still feel hungry now....don't know why....:(

miss my lou gong....

came across something new today....it's call 'snow lotus yeast enzyme'

it's seems to cure cancer and lots of illness.....but going thru youtube....there is no doctor certified as this is a proper medicine....anyway...just to try it out....

it seems to cure the face pimples as well....after all it's enzyme.....i guess should be ok! :D

~phing~

no penang this weekend

2011-06-07T20:11:00.001+08:00

Penang trip cancel due to darling can't take leave...:(

~phing~

Dusty Bloggi

2011-05-31T21:05:00.003+08:00

been sometimes i left this blog....

so dusty...:P

busy recently with work, love and family

lots of things happen...doesn't have the time to sit type each and everything down here....

lets start with work:-

recently 2 friend of mine left the office, and now only left me with a close friend...vivian...only 2 of us that can actually talk closely for a same topic...the others feel weird if i suddenly talks to them when i actually don't use to it!....

been thinking to resign...had been sending off my resume to few companies yesterday night....company trip in on july 2 - 5 , we are going to Sabah....well it was suppose to be thailand...well i guess is because some of them doesn't have passport...so it change to Malaysia trip...i think should be ok...i haven't step into sabah before...just go and relax should be ok i think....

office been a mess since ms. leu left....no one can actually haddle the cases careful...well... is a good news for me!! :P coz i'm not the one who is handling the cases...wakakakaka :D

so...just relax till i found a better job...:D

family:-

recently family is ok...is just the one in Singapore problem purchasing property there....waiting and waiting and waiting...she is coming back this weekend to celebrate father's day and papa's birthday :D ......

sorry papa i'm not at home during your birthday this year...celebrate it early with mummy, sista, sista bf and hubby :D

Love:-

recently been into some argument but i believe some the argument actually pulls us stronger....:D

i feel the sweetness whenever you are beside me...thanks for being beside me...:D

sorry for the "lau gai" that i use to do...:P ~ will try to less it...."if i can" hahahahahaha........

trying to be manja....hahahaha.....

overall is still OK for me...i'm quite happy recently....with the love hubby gaves me....thanks....muakzxxxx.....

love you.....

sign off

-phing-

Family and Work Problem

2011-04-16T19:12:00.002+08:00

HAIX....i already don't wanna say what ler..work already headache ler...somemore family want give problem...really hate it la!!!!!

Mum just came back from father's sister house....grandma is already 90 ++ years old....taking care by a indonesia maid...the maid giving problem to the family...but i guess the maid won't dare to do it if there is no support from someone. grandma is staying with my 2nd uncle and so - called not registered wife together with the maid under the same roof.....well i guess is the so - called unregistered uncle's wife is creating problem to the family...when my mum told me ...i was like ...if i'm there i will really slap her!! shit her man!

This morning the rain was so heavy , i try not to kena rain...but still...i kena..!! keep on running nose and headache....

came home had my lunch and eat medicine..doze off to nap...woke up with a headache....there the surprise news....WTF........

That's not the end! The main point is...they wanna dismiss the maid and get my grandma to stay here...asking my mum to stop babysitting the kids....

I scolded my mum....she physically is not that good condition...asking her to take care a 90+ old lady is not a choice.....i don't think this is a good way....now what i hoping is....sister in singapore quickly get a house...mum will be shifting there to stay!! i don't wanna hear all this kind of stories anymore....

i'm really tired...work is so stressful recently.....i have no one to talk too....

darling is working this weekend..didn't get to see him and i fall sick...what a great weekend!

Even a small little things office will call me...i'm thinking to get a new job...is really stressful when the office people had been train to spoon feed....REALLY FEEL LIKE THROWING LETTER AND JUST WALK AWAY!!! EVEN BEFORE I GET A NEW JOB....IT'S REALLY STRESSFUL TILL I DON'T HAVE SOMEONE TO SHARE WITH...BLOG IS THE BEST PLACE I GUESS!!!!

I been working for almost 3 years i guess...1st time in my life a client call and shout at me where the problem is not me.!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! it's not my mistake and the client call and shout at me! fuck you ! had call up the office to do the thing ASAP and didn't do it till the client call and shout at me! good...the efficient of work you have done .....congrats!!!!!!!!!!!!!fuck you....!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I'm really fucking feed up with the attitude you guys are giving....i don't give a fuck on it!! i really hate it!!!!

~phing~